SCREAM IT TO THE HEAVENS

[this_is_keron]

THE SHOUT YOUR
CONFESSIONS MEME





How to:
1. MAKE SURE CAPS LOCK IS ON
2. YOUR CHARACTER IS SUDDENLY COMPELLED TO SCREAM A CONFESSION OR TWO
3. OR FIVE IF YOU HAVE THAT MANY CONFESSIONS TO SCREAM
4. THE NUMBER DOESN'T MATTER. WHAT MATTERS IS THAT YOUR CHARACTER IS TALKING IN ALL CAPS
5. OTHER PEOPLE REPLY IN CAPS (POSSIBLY WHILE MAKING CONFESSIONS OF THEIR OWN)

Comments

[itaidakimasu]

I WAS BASICALLY THREATENED INTO BEING 'PARTNERS' AT THE BEGINNING, BUT NEAR THE END MY PSYCHOLOGICAL STUDIES HERE LEAD ME TO BELIEVE STOCKHOLM AND LIMA SYNDROMES TOOK ACTION. I DON'T KNOW IF GOOD LIFE DECISIONS ARE EVEN POSSIBLE ANY MORE.

[amorini]

[Facepalm. Self-diagnosing people, oi vey.]

SHOULDN'T IT BE EASY TO GET YOUR 'PARTNER' OR WHATEVER TO LEAVE YOU ALONE THEN, IF THE LATTER IS AN ACCURATE ASSESSMENT?

[itaidakimasu]

NO. HE'S ABUSIVE TO EVERYBODY, OR PULLING THE WOOL OVER THEIR EYES. BUT HE AT LEAST ACKNOWLEDGES I HAVE SOME WORTH, NOW.

[amorini]

...THAT'S HARDLY LIMA SYNDROME THEN. AT BEST, IT'S JUST ANOTHER TACTIC TO FURTHER YOUR OWN PSYCHOLOGICAL DEPENDENCY ON HIM- IN THIS CASE, CONTINUING TO GET HIS APPROVAL.

[itaidakimasu]

THAT WOULDN'T SURPRISE ME.

[amorini]

GEEZ, YOU'RE REALLY NOT...

[Facepalming. She's doing it so hard.]

[itaidakimasu]

IT'S A VOLATILE DYNAMIC, BUT IT'S NOT ONE I CAN SHAKE OFF EASILY. HE'S A BIG PART OF MY LIFE.

[amorini]

BE THAT AS IT MAY, IF HE'S NOT HERE THEN WHAT'S STOPPING YOU FROM TRYING TO MOVE PAST IT?

[itaidakimasu]

TRAUMA. STRANGE, BEATEN-IN LOYALTY. A DESPERATE DESIRE FOR SOME SORT OF NORMALITY. MEMORIES OF THE FEW BUT KEY WAYS HE HELPED ME. TAKE YOUR PICK. NONE OF THEM SOUND VERY GOOD OUT LOUD, BUT IF YOU THINK IT'S AN EASY OR SIMPLE PROCESS IT REALLY ISN'T. LOGICALLY, I KNOW IT'S A CANCEROUS CONNECTION.

[amorini]

NO ONE SAID IT WOULD BE EASY. THINGS LIKE THAT NEVER ARE. BUT IT'S ALL A MATTER OF WILLPOWER IN THE END, AND THOUGH YOU SAY YOU WANT TO BE NORMAL, IT DOESN'T SOUND LIKE YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO TRY FOR IT.

PRETENDING ISN'T THE SAME.

[itaidakimasu]

I CAN'T BE NORMAL. I TRIED, ONCE. I LEFT. BUT I HATED MYSELF, DURING THAT TIME. I WAS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON COMPARED TO WHO I WAS BEFORE I MET HIM. I...DIDN'T FIT. I OUTGREW THAT VERSION OF MYSELF, IN A SENSE. IF THAT MAKES SENSE AT ALL.

[amorini]

YOU CAN'T JUST GO OFF AND DECIDE TO CHANGE SOMETHING LIKE THAT WITHOUT ANY HELP. GEEZ, AND YOU SAY YOU READ UP ON THIS STUFF?

NO MATTER IF YOU OUTGREW WHO YOU WERE, IT'S NOT ABOUT GOING BACK TO BEING THAT. 'NORMAL' DOESN'T MEAN 'WHO YOU USED TO BE'- IT MEANS TAKING WHAT HAPPENED AND USING IT TO MAKE YOURSELF SOMEONE WHO CAN STILL GROW FROM THAT.

[itaidakimasu]

I READ UP HERE. BACK THEN I WAS LOST AND HAD JUST WITNESSED TWO LOVED ONES GET KILLED AND KILLED THEMSELVES RESPECTIVELY. OH, AND A MUTANT TERRORIST CELL LEADER WAS TRYING TO WIPE OUT ALL OTHER SENTIENT LIFE. IT WAS A BUSY TIME.

GROWTH IS THE POINT. HE PUTS ME THROUGH ALL THIS BECAUSE HE WANTS ME TO EVOLVE AS A PERSON.

[amorini]

THEN THAT'S JUST MAKING MY POINT! YOU READ UP ON IT HERE, YOU KNOW YOU WENT ABOUT IT THE WRONG WAY BEFORE, SO WHY NOT TRY AGAIN?

ALSO YOUR WORLD IS A HOT MESS LIKE THAT AND THEY WOULDN'T BELIEVE 'DEMON' OR 'SHAPESHIFTER'? WHAT'S WRONG WITH THEM?!


OH MY SWEET PANTHEON YOU DID NOT JUST SAY THAT TO ME.

[itaidakimasu]

...I'LL PROBABLY HAVE TO GIVE IT UP WHEN I GO BACK.

IT WAS A DIFFICULT, VERY RECENT PILL TO SWALLOW, AND HE DELIBERATELY HID HIS ORIGINS. BUT ON THE OTHER HAND HE'S COVERTLY BEATEN ME IN PUBLIC, SO I DON'T EVEN KNOW.

I ALMOST WISH I WAS JOKING, BUT THAT'S HIS MOTIVATION. THE MORE I GROW, THE MORE USEFUL I CAN BE TO HIM. IT'S NOT EXPLICITLY FOR MY BENEFIT BY A LONG SHOT.